When I reflect on my childhood, I cannot recall a memory of my mother ever showing any fear. Whenever a thunderstorm would freak us kids out she would seem so relaxed even somewhat fasinated with the lightening. Still to this day I am doubtful that my mom fears anything. She is my Superhero. Yet now that I am a mother myself I find myself laughing off the thunder that still rocks my nerves. And casually slaying the spiders that cause me to shudder inwardly. In the presence of my daughter I try to down play any of my distress. I watch out the window at the storm as if I only see the beauty, but I'm really worrying about weather the tornado or the strikes of lightening are close enough to cause damage. I tell her the spider, bugs, ants are no big deal , but oblige her by killing any of the ones that are in the house (outside spiders can keep their lives if they remain a safe distance). Although when a spider gets on me I have been know to completely freak out -- even to the point of yanking my shirt off to make sure it was no longer on me. I did not however react this way in front of my daughter. I HATE bees very much as well and react similarly.
Do you hide your fears from your kids? Is it just part of adulthood to ignore those natural reactions that have not faded? Or do most people actually move past this fears? When my daughter thinks of me will I be in her mind fearless, or does she see through my act?